Quetiapine Diary: Day 2

There is a definite numbness that has swept over since starting the Quetiapine, which has gradually deteriorated from a slight hazy sensation to the feeling that I am becoming disconnected with the rest of the world. The day is spent acting by default as I do nothing more than drift from one meaningless task to the next, all purpose behind them lost to an abyss of insignificance. Other symptoms of depression have been close to follow. In particular I’ve become irritable and short-tempered, making it more and more difficult to socialise with those around me without lashing out in a fit of frustration. I certainly don’t envy those who get caught up in the aggression.

Exhaustion has become an overwhelming presence of each day, but I’m attempting to fight against it. I find it’s helping to build exercise into the foundations of my daily routine, the adrenaline allowing for a momentary window of relief in the suffocating enervation. Yet despite spending the day feeling tired, attempting to sleep without disruption has become quite the challenge. At night I am woken by a tightness in my legs which then spreads to my chest and arms, not in a painful pursuit, but one that is rather uncomfortable and more than enough to keep me from the pleasant virtue of slumber. In the mornings I have been awoken by something quite different. It began yesterday morning, when I usually get to enjoy the peace and quiet of an empty house, but instead I was stirred by the sound of footsteps leading up the stairs and into the bathroom. In my sleep deprived state I thought nothing of it, and as the taps were turned on, the soothing sound of running water quickly sent me back to sleep. It wasn’t long, however, before I was disturbed again by the same sound, this time the footsteps leading across the hallway and into my bedroom. As I lay there, eyes still shut, I listened until the steps could be no more than a metre from my pillow before curiosity got the better of me and I turned over to see who it could possibly be. No one. I was alone, both in my room and in the house. The noise I had been so convinced was real was nothing more than a deceitful, yet utterly fictitious, hallucination.

The combination of side-effects is taking its toll, even on more trivial matters such as my ability to write articulate and coherent sentences; this post taking far longer and omitting a significant amount more than it should, however I maintain a positive attitude. If this is the lengths of what must be endured to get my life back on track then I consider myself a fortunate individual, but unfortunately one that may be of rather unbearable company for a little while longer.

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20 thoughts on “Quetiapine Diary: Day 2

  1. I can relate to that. Almost all of the psychiatric drugs including lithium, Risperdone etc have side effects, but I experienced Quetiapine has more obvious adverse effects. I was taking 100mg 1 tablet at night for the last 8 months, and used to have weird dreams, and unable to focus on thinking and writing. Now i asked my doctor to reduce the dose to 50 mg and i ll eventually get rid of it.

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  2. I can completely relate to your feelings with Quetiapine and agree with everything you said about the side effects. Weight gain and hallucination constant deja vu’s are my biggest issue. My psychiatrist is monitoring my side effects to the medication in hopes to slowly take me off it in the next couple of months. Hopes everything gets better -Phoenix

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    • Hi Phoenix, it’s comforting to know I’m not the only one experiencing such side effects, although I’m keeping my fingers crossed that they’ll improve with time. Best of luck coming off them! I hope things start to get better for you too.

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  3. I am on 25 mg and started about 6 weeks ago. The last two days my numbness switched into full on depression… I think given the choice I would have preferred the numbness!

    I have been having problems with hallucinations too but mostly visual ones. I tend to experience a lot more physical side effects than most people and I’m glad you haven’t seemed to mention any of those on top of what you’re dealing with. Good luck, I hope things improve soon!

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    • Thanks for sharing your experiences on Quetiapine so far. I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve now fallen into a depression, and I hope things get better for you soon. I have been fortunate enough not to suffer the physical side effects to greatly so far and I hope it stays that way, the psychological effects are definitely troubling enough for me. Good luck and all the best to you!

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  4. Good morning, I was hoping the side effects would not hit so hard. I haven’t taken it but know people who have. As we talked the other day, I would talk to your doctor right away and consider taking Prozac or cut the dose in half and work you up to that dose. Prozac is no more addictive, actually less addictive than Quetiapine. When you are depressed you don’t need a drug that brings you down and slows you’re reaction. Be careful, the first month to six weeks are the most critical in starting a new drug. Have you been in brain fog and not able to find a Psychiatrist? Please drop me a line and let me know how your doing. πŸ™‚

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    • Hello again! I’m hoping to see my doctor sometime this week to discuss how the treatment is going and what they suggest, personally I would like to try and stick out the Quetiapine for a little while longer to see whether things get better, particularly as there’s no certainty I would react better to Prozac. I haven’t yet been able to find a psychiatrist but it’s still at the top of my list πŸ™‚ thank you again for all your help!

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      • The difference in the drugs, for me, is they are different types of medicines which effect your brain different. The doctor won’t be able to make a true assessment until you’ve been on 4-8 weeks. Some of the side effects may tapper off and others will not go away. Quetiapine is an Anti-psychotic drug. It sound to me like you were depressed and more depressed? Is that an accurate statement. Think about what Psychotic means, were you acting Psychotic? That the reason you feel slow, sleepy, brain fog, those types of symptoms because when someone is say Manic, the other side of Bipolar, and they are delusional you would want a drug drug to bring you right down. Prozac works on a different part of brain by stimulating it to produce more of, possibly Serotonin. Stimulating is going to bring you up and if it does it’s job helps keep you from being depressed. I have taken Prozac of and on for 20+ years without problems. Wellbutrin is another good drug that can work fairly quickly like Prozac. I take the slow release 300 mg. It helps as well. What you may encounter, which most Bipolar people do, you have to take several drugs a day to keep you level. I have to take pills so I always if I can cut the does when I’ve doing good for a while. I used to take 900mg of Lithium, 600mg Wellbutrin, 60 mg Prozac, 45 mg of Dexedrine and I take Xanax as needed, usually 3 a day. 2 of those at night to sleep. I got off Ambien. I’ve cut all those drugs way back but I’ve taken them for a long time. Did you start charting your mood? That will help you if you’re down or cycling or just what is going on. The side effects of Quetiapine are pretty rough, do you have someone their to keep an eye on you while you adjust to meds? If not, make sure you go to FDA.gov and see the complete list of side effects and warnings. What comes from the pharmacy is useless. I you can get in this week and you want to stay on the drug ask if they can half the dose until you adjust then add the other on. It’s much easier to handle side effects that way. I’ve talked your ear off but I thought about you earlier as got concerned. You’re new to being told you have a mental illness, a lot can happen in the beginning. It’s always possible to get misdiagnosed and for a doctor without in depth knowledge to give meds that maybe a Psychiatrist would not. It call feel a bit like a roller coaster, all the more reason to chart moods and make notes of what side effects are and what is going on your mind. Take care, Be safe. Please update me on how you’re doing. I’m thinking about you. πŸ™‚

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      • Your knowledge in this area is quite astounding, and it sounds like you’ve been through a lot to get where you are today. To answer your question, I have both depressed and manic episodes of which I rapid cycle between the two, but I was just falling into a manic episode when I started taking the Quetiapine. The past couple of days I have found the side-effects slightly easier to manage, although I find my mood fluctuates throughout the day – charting my mood has certainly helped me to see that. It’s still early days for me in determining what medication I will need in the long run as I see this more as a starting point than a solution, but thankfully I’m living at home for a few more weeks so that I have someone here to keep an eye on me. I’m touched by your concern and as always have found everything you said both informative and comforting, and definitely encouraging that I can eventually get on top of this illness. I’m staying strong and positive! Many thanks πŸ™‚

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      • I now have a better understanding of you’re at reading all of your post. It can be difficult to accept what fells like an over whelming diagnosis. I was 19 when I was diagnosed but didn’t take it serious until my father committed suicide when I was 28. The best thing I did for mental health was get a great team of doctors and stayed with them. I’ve had the same team for 15 years. It really helps when they know you, you can talk more honestly with them and there is a trust built. After reading that you’re cycling you may have made the right choice. It’s difficult in the beginning because there could be lots of medicine changes. After the doctor puts the right mix together you pray that it works a long time. By then the doctor will know you and your moods better and can put another cocktail together much easier when that mix stops working. I felt very overwhelmed at times and honestly quite angry. I still have those feelings at times. When I accepted my illness was like any other long tern illness I got more involved in my treatment. Do you have someone a college you can confide in that can keep an eye on you. Who doesn’t love the feel of mania, WOW! it feels great. What my doctor always tells me is the higher you go the harder you fall. If you have someone you trust they can help you recognize when you start getting to high. When were on the way to high we don’t always see it. I’m glad you took my comments as they were meant and not preaching. I will support you any way I can. There is a great blog that drop you line with once I look her up. I’ve gotten to know her well and although she is older she has difficulty and is a great source of information. She is the best source of non-stop mental health and Bipolar information from excellent sources. Her name is amy and she is very easy to talk to. You can make it thru this difficult time with the positive attitude you have. Please reach out to me anytime you need help or someone to talk to. Talk to you soon. πŸ™‚

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